What do you see ?

What do you see when you look around you ? Your eyes will see many things, that's for sure.

But now look them with your heart. Do you see the same things ? May be, may be not.

For me, I see the silhouette of a perfect Grand Plan. A perfectly accurate construction of bits and pieces of the Great Universe. No single detail is missing. No inconsistencies at all.

I feel like being part of the Plan. I feel what I have been working so far is to realize the Plan. Strangely, I feel submissive about it. Absolutely no reluctance. Like a child who eagerly does something that he really wants to do. I expect nothing in return.

I keep asking myself ... what's this feeling about ?

Suddenly I remember, "Islam is rahmatan lil alamin". Then everything becomes clear to me. Being part of the Great Plan is just my qudrat. That's why I am created for.

I promise I will be a candle that shines in the dark. A candle that gives light to everyone who needs it. And I don't do it for my self. There is no me, I don't exist. I am just a candle in the hand of the Creator of the Plan...

Inspiring conversations

Just back from a trip to Bandung. Tired, as usual :), but inspired...

The house is ordinary. A bit old, but not as old as the owners. Their body is weak, but their soul are shiningly ripe. Enchanting souls that keep transmitting peace to their surrounding...

Conversations with Pakde and Bude are always inspirational. Concepts that have never been spoken publicly pour into my mind. Not many of them are new to me, and some of them are weird :) Well... I have to admit that some of them are more like bedside stories to a Javanese like me since they are expressed using western point of view. But still, the way Pakde and Bude speak expresses their sincerity and surrenderness, to which I pay my respect.

Oh, I also have to mention about their youngest daughter. First of all, I have to say that she is pretty and has beautiful eyes (really, Mbak, I'm honest about this). "No wonder", I think, when she complained about so much harrasment she has been experiencing so far.

Anyway, she is very expressive. I like her vibrant body language when telling stories. But that's not the thing that makes me attracted to her. After enjoying several conversations with her, I know that she is a pleasant companion in my journey to search the real meaning of life. We have great parts in common. Our religious background, our perspective about life, our goal in life, ...

Our conversations are always fruitful, at least to me. I get insight into what our life should be. I can speak freely about my choice of being different from the mainstream. We can discuss about things behind symbols in religions. I can even tell my personal religious experiences that I have been kept for long. I can express all of those in straightforward manner. Frankly and honestly. Nothing disguised. Thanks Mbak... I hope some time later we will get to our final destination. Safely.

That house on Sangkuriang street really has a special place in my heart...